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The Way I See It, There Are 17 Days Until I Can Be at the Lake

Hello Glendo...

...and all the water, fun, serenity and (in)sanity that comes with you!

Yes, I cannot wait. This winter has been forever long and with the arrival of the bigger/better houseboat, I can focus on little else than camping, WATER, tubing, boating, SUN, and so on.

Not to mention the complete sense of wholeness I find in myself mentally, physically and spiritually when I'm there.

It doesn't help that that Friday night conversation recalled the late night swims under full moons- and sleeping on car hoods- of last summer! Ha ha.

OR that summer camping gear is flowing through our dept. and I am surrounded by the tempting call of tents/sleeping bags/beach chairs/etc.

OR that yesterday the only goal we had in life was to name the new boat. (Which we did not come to an agreement on.) lol

It's time.

Hello Friday (and it's raining men!)

So, scrap the lavalife part of the pic, and throw in Match.com and you have my life. LOL!

Although the majority of the documentation of the entertainment brought to my life via online dating will be posted on my private blog, I have to admit, this weekend is looking fun. Who knew that such eligible, hot, normal men could find a girl on such a site!?!?!

Seriously, I would recommend "Rebounding with Match" to just about anyone at this point.

How did I get thrown into this rainstorm? Intially, I must thank Amber, who met her successful/stable/good-hearted and hot husband on there. I don't think I would have ever tried it otherwise.

Aside from the rainstorm, I am also looking forward to a training session at the gym, going to a Cirque de Soleil type performance, a pedicure and Easter. I must admit I am quite high on life at the moment (and Accelerator3-lol).

Sadly, busy-ness/rainstorm distractions have been my vice for healing the heart over D-boy but it's working relatively well... so why question it?

And YAY for dumbing things down. Jessica Simpson might have the right idea after all... at least for a bit. I missed having fun/being lighthearted/just ENJOYING the person I was with... I don't want to be fixing things - or them- all of the time ever again. I definitely fall into that role too easily... thanks to my mothering instinct and how overly caring/concerned I can be for people no doubt.

So, onto endless "Match"-es - all which have a min. age and education limit I might add...

For the fun, "keep up with the rainstorm" blog address (which includes hilarious re-counts of the online dating life of yours truly) ask me for the other blog address. It's quite amusing!

Signing off and putting up my umbrella...

Miss Me? I've missed myself.

I don't think I could find a picture to represent this blog. For one, I don't even know what it's going to be about. For two, I have so much going on in this head of mine it would look like a sick kaleidoscope of images. haha.
My 28th went wonderfully. I truly felt SO grateful for the friends and family who went out of their way to make my day so special. PLUS, Kahyim and I got to see Step Up 2 finally... it doesn't get better than that. HA! (Well, except for Step Up 1 - lots more Channing.)
Anyways, I got a beautifully "under the ocean" decorated cubicle and all kinds of surprises of joy all day. AND I feel good about being 28... and continuing to move up the ranks. The ups and downs and "figuring themselves out" I've been through lately with more than one younger person has made me SO glad to be at a place of more clarity about my life, my allegiances (what's important to ME and how I decide what's best for my life and what I want) and that family is an amazing thing but actually stronger once the controlling-type ties are cut. Now, I'm sure I will HATE the day K cuts these ties too... but hopefully I'll remember that in the end, it will strengthen our relationship as she defines herself and chooses what is right for her.
Moving on...
I am TOTALLY EXCITED about tomorrow night. Melis will be here, and all my other girls will be joining me in F.C. for the RIO and MARGS and DANCING! AND, I bought the dress posted in a prior blog out of break-up heartache. haha. Yep, the Lucky 13 one. Even ordered a pink petticoat for under it. It's going to be a GOOD night. LOL!
On a more serious note...
I have never fasted before in my life. Never studied HOW to do it either. But I did it. Two days of this week. And prayed over the Daniel, the me, and the "us" the whole time. I thought I had closure to the rel. at the end of last night but now am not sure. IF there was to be a reconciliation, it would def. take Gods hand. I realized there is only so much I can do. The rest is up to him and God. I don't know his heart, so I can only project guesses at what it will take to bring down his walls, but it's not my job to do it, nor can I... no matter how much the "fixer" or the "mother" or the "I want him to KNOW he can trust me!" in me wants to. :)
On the "mommy note"...
(Ok worst tie in ever, I know) K has an assembly at school tonight where she is dressing up as Jasmine. Shad promised me he'd wear an Alladin costume IF I found him one. I am SO tempted. But, in reality, it would be purely for my entertainment and probably would embarass K. Maybe not... I'll let you know how that goes. And if it does go down, you bet I'll be posting pics EVERYWHERE! LOL