I have no idea what the last post was going to entail, or what my "defining moment" was BUT I do believe that those words accurately describe the last two weeks of my life. Perhaps it was meant to be a blank post... something to be fulfilled later down the road.The week before last I was given the opportunity to start work for a non-profit organization like I've always hoped to. I believe it's going to be the first step in an incredible string of journeys.
I've also (just today) made the hard decision to change a pattern in my life. It's ultimately like pivoting and walking off of a circular, comfortable path into some new grasses. As with any situation of this type, I know it's not going to be easy, but as stated in the title, I feel it's necessary in order to choose better for myself... and for Kahyim. Just because a path is well-worn and comfortable, it may not lead you to where you deserve to be. What the heck, let's be honest, I've gotten 'comfortable'- more like used to- settling for being treated in ways that are far beneath what I deserve. Therefore, K gets less than she deserves too... in a role model, in a familial setting, in having a joy-filled home. So, here's to choosing better for the life she deserves and what I deserve as well.
As with all change there are slight waves of heaviness in the air... the emptiness of letting go of people and ideals held onto for long lengths of time, fears of uncertainties, etc. However, the air overall seems to be getting lighter.
Essentially, amidst new opportunities, new choices and new paths I look forward to a few strong "defining moments" in my, in our, near future.I've also (just today) made the hard decision to change a pattern in my life. It's ultimately like pivoting and walking off of a circular, comfortable path into some new grasses. As with any situation of this type, I know it's not going to be easy, but as stated in the title, I feel it's necessary in order to choose better for myself... and for Kahyim. Just because a path is well-worn and comfortable, it may not lead you to where you deserve to be. What the heck, let's be honest, I've gotten 'comfortable'- more like used to- settling for being treated in ways that are far beneath what I deserve. Therefore, K gets less than she deserves too... in a role model, in a familial setting, in having a joy-filled home. So, here's to choosing better for the life she deserves and what I deserve as well.
As with all change there are slight waves of heaviness in the air... the emptiness of letting go of people and ideals held onto for long lengths of time, fears of uncertainties, etc. However, the air overall seems to be getting lighter.
