So, here's to it...

...embracing that canvas instead of furiously filling it with randomness that leaves my head spinning

...purposefully painting each stroke

...and laughing, a lot.

Starting Again

So, I feel like I've made a mess of the canvas I spoke of in my last blog. This one portrays about how I feel.

It seems to tell a story of turmoil, which is where I've been at. Discontent and dark most days, enlightened and fulfilled occasionally on others. I couldn't believe it had almost been a month already since my last blog. I feel as though I've filled my life with activity and people to compensate for the unsurety I've felt. I won't lie... I've had some really sad and foggy days- some poor decisions and some real soul searching. I think I'm on the uphill climb though. Lately I've began being comfortable again in my own skin.

I'm ready to start over. Let the dust settle on this canvas and bask in the unmarred fibers of a fresh one.

That doesn't necessarily mean an entirely new start... just a new outlook, a revived vitality and lots of laughter.

That's my new kick. Laughter. It really is the medicine of life. A lesson reinforced by my beautiful K. The first night I laughed... REALLY laughed... in awhile was recently during a dance party in the car. I think we both felt release and it was perfect (in spite of me knocking her in the head with my awesome sprinkler moves-haha).