Wellness

Perhaps it is because I feel settled & temporarily content, but I have a new-found draw to all-things-wellness. 

I'm not talking about never eating another grain of refined sugar or training for a triathlon.

I have a fresh perspective... a desire to obtain a well-rounded wellness. 

I took this photo from an apple orchard in CO, and although I still feel a strong draw there and see myself there in the future, it has helped to make a decision to stay here until K graduates. It's given me a chance to look around me (figuratively and literally) and remember what it is I want to spend the hours of my days doing/accomplishing. 

A wellness with balance.

A wellness that has time for God, for others, and time for me.

There is no doubt that my personality defaults to dreaming and serving the world, to existing as a circle of influence that really never stops swiftly spinning. 

However, for whatever reason, the spin has been somewhat sedated recently. 

If I'm being honest with myself, I like it and I don't.

I am enjoying the freedom and clarity it is bringing, but I feel like I'm lacking something...

My thoughts jump into- "What can I pursue? Where can I go full-throttle?"

Yet none of the answers provide opportunities that are able to fulfill the right-now.

They all fall into the futuristic category- and my invigoration around them does not fade- but I am able to place them out there for another time, their purposed time.

So, here I am- finding clarity in fewer things, focusing on my individual world...

Filtering my impulses, living in a semi-dramatic "pause" and placing my desires in 2015 and beyond.